Thank you, Cristina, for clarifying.
I'm still a bit mystified though - the opening event was ten people speaking for five minutes each - it was quite nervewracking and I wasn't sure what to expect (like I said, I didn't know about Transmediale before I was asked to speak this year, and still don't really understand what it means in the German or broader cultural landscape). In the five minutes, and on the panel, especially, I tried to talk about the situation in Britain and how people can offer spare rooms to refugees, how we might think of a 'negative internationalism' based on the recognition of mutual vulnerability and how we might inventory who owns and has what, how the rich hide their assets etc. (I don't remember exactly what I said at either event as I didn't write out anything in advance, probably stupidly). I am not sure how speaking events that are between five and fifteen minutes can be anything other than 'rhetorical' and in a room as big as the auditorium that makes it even harder, which is why I tried to talk about intimacy and alienation at the start (also because I was nervous and underslept, again).
I don't know which specific 'fastforward namedropping concept screaming philosophical interventions' you mean, unless you are talking about the rally/panel again. I try in general to always explain the ideas and concepts I use and to think from the standpoint of the audience. But of course it might not always 'succeed', and it might not always be the right place. I did not get the feeling from the other panellists I spoke with or met that they were acting like part of something 'hegemonic and hypocritical towards everyone else expect the in-crowd', but rather they were concerned seriously with fascism, technology, refugees etc. I do not claim to stand for 'the others' but simply try to do what I can, like many others, to improve things where I can, politically, personally, whatever. I have surely made a million mistakes, and do not claim to have any wonderful answers or solutions, but I am interested in listening to what people need and also what people know - so Ewa's talk on fascism in Poland, for example, was important and informative, because it talked urgently about things I didn't know about before. I cannot get behind the idea that she and others are somehow cynical or trying to appeal to some 'in-crowd'. I don't know who the 'in-crowd' for Transmediale might be.
I suppose these kinds of events are inherently frustrating given that they do not do the same work as a poem, or an activist meeting, or the actual work of supporting refugees, helping leftwing lawyers, thinking carefully about a problem, supporting a friend, etc. And events like this can always fail, everything can always fail.
On a more petty note, I suppose I was mildly upset that you had picked two pictures of me, because I don't like the way I look particularly, especially at the moment, and it felt a bit personal, which is why I made a joke about it, because that is how I deal with things like that. Anyway, of course I am always a big fan of polemical writing, and anger, and thank you for writing your comment: I wasn't expecting you to reply.